As I mentioned in my first post, I think that blogs are more interesting if you feel like you get to know the person you are reading about. This is one of those posts.
For those of you who don’t know me, we are going through a tough time in our family right now. After several years of battling cancer off and on, my dad can no longer fight it and is now in the Hospice system. I can not say enough good things about KC Hospice. The nurses have all been amazing at making an awful situation a little more bearable.
In the past week we learned it is probably in his bones, very painful, and in all likely-hood his brain. I also had a friend lose her father and I just can’t imagine my dad actually being gone, even though the life he lives now is not living at all and he hates it.
Today we struggle with more news about his condition and of course just facing the downward spiral in general. Last night and today I could think about nothing except that I have not had a good conversation with him about his funeral wishes and just our relationship in general. How does one even start a conversation like that? “Hey dad, I know you are gonna be gone soon, so how ya feeling about that?” (Yes my snarkiness is always in force no matter my mood.)
How do you handle the “look” people give you when they ask how things are and how your dad is? You know the look I mean; the head tilt doey-eyed look….My response to that: “He is still dying.” Yeah, humor is a big part of our family.
So, I guess this post has turned into questions…If you have gone through this, any advice is appreciated. I don’t know what I would do without the amazing support system I have in my life, especially given the people who should be here helping, his sons, are not.
Love and peace to all of you and yes, yes, I promise a funny HR story for the next post!