Saying Goodbye and Forgiveness 

I have really struggled with how I feel on this day for a few years now. See, it would be my oldest stepbrothers’ birthday today. We had an incredibly tumultuous relationship and he wasn’t a very nice person sometimes. 3 years ago, as he lay dying in a hospital bed, I had to decide if I would hold on to all the anger or forgive him. I chose forgiveness; not for him but for me. I knew, as it came down to the end and his oldest daughter, my beautiful niece, had to make some tough choices, that I had choices too.

In 2014 I was blessed with a miracle baby and life forever changed. As my brother lay dying that year, I had to choose to be a good mother and role model and that meant choosing forgiveness. It wasn’t an easy road. It took days of prayer and battling my own brain. In the end, because he was so far away, I had a nd phone held to his ear and I forgave him. I sobbed through it all. I like to think he heard me, but what really matters is, I know I did it. I know I made a good choice. I know I chose the path that would help me move on with my life.

It’s funny how things work out. It’s all so crazy how nuts family can be when someone is dying. So much chaos and so many lies. It’s ok though because I know the truth; I know I’m a good person, I know I can look myself in the mirror and I know I can sleep at night. As the song goes, “in the end, nothing else matters.”

Live big, love hard, be kind and always, always forgive. For you, not them.

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Endings…and Beginnings

After 15 years at the same company, today is my last day.  What a bittersweet day it will be. I have learned so much, but am so excited for some new adventures.

Make sure that no matter what situation you are in, you always pay attention and learn from others. You can learn something from everyone, good or bad! You can learn how to do new, great things and you can learn things you don’t want to do. 🙂

As we have discussed before, change can be SO hard, but also so great. I am a firm believer in all things happening the way they are meant to happen.

Take time, learn things, really stop and smell the flowers, enjoy life and don’t take it too seriously!

Cheers!

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Vacation

When was the last time you took a holiday? Have you accumulated a lot of time off at work but are not allowed to take it?

Only 14 percent of Americans will take a vacation of two weeks or more this year. The standard holiday in the U.S. is now down to a long weekend. Studies show that vacations are as important as watching your cholesterol or getting exercise. An annual vacation can cut the risk of heart attack in men by 30 percent and in women by 50 percent. Time away from the source of stressors helps regather crashed emotional resources, such as a sense of mastery and social support. But here’s the catch: It takes two weeks for that process to occur. You can’t get those benefits from a long weekend.

Time off work is critical. We need to unplug and renew ourselves. Healthier minds and bodies are more productive.

I am taking my own advice and going on vacation. We are heading to the East coast for 2 weeks and I can not wait. This will be my first time taking my son on an airplane. I am excited and nervous both!

What are you doing to unplug and renew this year?

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Aloha 2014….Aloha 2015

Well, here we are in another new year. Everyone is running around making resolutions or maybe just lying around recovering from the ringing in of 2015.

I spent my evening in a way never expected; with an amazing, fun, wonderful boy right by my side, my son. What a year 2014 has been. There have been some amazing, perfect miracles and some really tragic events.

2014 started with a loss I never saw coming so soon….the lost of one of my best friends who had become like a brother to me, Dan. What a piece of work he was and I am sure still is. I am positive he is keeping God on his toes. 4 days later I gave birth to a son. What an amazing night that I never expected. He is my rainbow and miracle baby. The fact he had survived pregnancy and birth, to be totally normal and perfect, is just a miracle. That story can be read here. After his birth I had to have 2 more surgeries in 2014. The last one was a hysterectomy because of a large mass in my uterus. God is funny.

There have been a few other things in the last month that were not the best, but watching this little boy grow up helps with all of that. I don’t know what I would do without my mom. She not only watches my son during the day, but helps with so much (read: everything) around the house and for that I am so incredibly thankful. Being a single parent is really, really tough, but she makes it easier.

In addition to all this, we have been in a time of change professionally. I don’t know what 2015 holds in store professionally, but I am excited by the challenge.

I hope that everyone has the best 2015 they can. It will come with highs and lows, but life is worth the ride. I get to welcome the year with the 1st birthday of my rainbow baby and I couldn’t be happier.

My resolution simple: enjoy life, living each day to its fullest, and stay positive through it all. What about you? What are your hopes/dreams in 2015?

Hello 2015. I am ready for you. I am ready to see what you have in store.

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Change

Why do we, as a people, hate change? We are happy to quickly walk, ok RUN, away from change. A lot of articles have been written on change, but here is my $.02.

Change is scary, whether it is good or bad. It can be especially overwhelming if it occurs in your personal and professional life at the same time.

This year I had a baby, bought a new house and am going through a transition at work where our company is being integrated into the company that bought us in 2013. All of these things are good, but hard none the less, because it is change.

Here are some things that help me with change and hopefully will be useful to you.

1. Whatever you feel is ok – Don’t let anyone diminish your feelings. Feel what you need to about the change.

2. Be patient and persistent – You know what you want….get there!

3. Create a plan – Figure out what you need to do in handling the change and then break it up into manageable parts, if you can.

4. Don’t let up – Keep at it. You will get there.

Change is constant.  Or as Yoda would put it: Always in motion is the future.

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Where Has The Etiquette Gone?

Maybe it is just me, but it seems like I see a lack of etiquette more and more on a daily basis. I don’t just mean from a business standpoint either…it seems like it happens in our personal lives. I thought it would be a good time to share some friendly reminders.

1. Interviews: Don’t schedule an appointment to go interview with a company and then not show up or call. Not only will I never give you another chance, unless you had an amazing reason for missing, but guess what, KC is a small (big) town and HR people talk.

2. Accepting the job: Do not, and I repeat DO NOT, accept a job with a company and then not show up for your first day. You took the time to apply. We took the time to meet you. We all loved each other and you got hired and then, BOOM, you are nowhere to be found. We will be thrilled for you if you find something that is better and amazing for you, but just take 5 minutes and let us know. If you are embarrassed, leave me a voice mail at 1am, but just communicate!!! As Emily Post would say “being a no-show is unacceptable.”

3. Parties / Events: I went through this recently. We had an event and sent out many invitations and had many amazing people show up. People sent an affirmative response and then didn’t show (barring sickness of course;) people didn’t respond at all and then showed or even worse, people did not respond at all. If a person cares enough to invite you to something, care enough to respond. Think about the times you invite people to do something. Usually you are planning, buying party supplies, food, etc…without an accurate count, you have no idea what to do. I see the same thing with our company events as well. We work hard to put these events together and have to plan ahead so everyone has what they need….make sure and RSVP and then stand by your RSVP, barring accident, illness or death!

These are just the tip of the iceberg, in my frontal lobe right now …. don’t even get me started on line-cutting, inconsiderate drivers, people not taking time to spell check emails / texts / RESUMES, or worse, those people who feel it is OK to rub a pregnant woman’s belly …. Hello?

I would love any thoughts / comments anyone else has on this topic.

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An Open Letter to My Son

Dear Alistair,

Next week mommy is having surgery. For some reason, I am feeling very nervous. There are some things I want to make sure you know.

1. Know that mommy loves you very much. My life is so much better because of you. You are my miracle from God.

2. Always put God first. Pray and be thankful every day. Follow the path He has for you. He put you here for something special.

3. Always be fearless. Never be afraid to try new things. Take chance in life and love hard.

4. Always make time for family and friends, no matter how busy life gets. Nobody ends life wishing they had worked more or had more material items.

5. Be kind. Treat others with love, respect and kindness, even if they are rude or give you no reason. They are the ones who need your love the most. You never know what cross they are bearing in life and your kindness could be just what they need.

6. So many people love you and will always be there for you. Have someone you and trust that you can always talk with. I know there will be things a boy can’t share with his family. Find that person you trust to help you.

7. Always respect yourself. Nobody is allowed to hurt you or treat you bad, mentally or physically. You are a special, amazing kid and you should always remember that.

8, Travel and see the world. There are so many amazing places in this world and so many people you can meet and learn from.

9. Be healthy. Not just physically, but mentally and spiritually. I know you are going to do great things. You are special, amazing and so blessed.

10. Know that even when we are no longer together, I am always going to be with you. We will see each other again someday.

Pray and thank God every day for your life.

Love you so much,

Mom Mom

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